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I have had my laptop now for almost 2 years. I got it in December of 2009 and am just now discovering the Windows Live Writer program on it. So this is a simple test of what it will be like to use windows writer to write my blog and add pictures, instead of directly using blogger.
First off – I am totally digging the picture options –I can enter a whole album of pics and show them to you scattered, like above or in a line across the top. Or in about 6 other ways. Nice!

I can insert maps too. Here’s a bird’s eye view of the tiny little Lewes beach I love to go to –The one that’s almost private, never crowded and on the inlet so the waves don’t kill ya! The pictures from the photo album above were taken at this beach.
Ok so far I am loving this. I’m going to play some more and then do an actual blog blog with this.
So cool! (yes i am such a nerd LOL)

9 Things You Might be Doing That are Making Your Life Suck

A must read for all of us. Written by Andrea Owen- Life Coach, mom, wife, friend,survivor...She is Kick Ass and her blog - Your Kickass Life is awesome. Click on the link and take a look at the 9 things you can control that might be making your life suck. You will be amazed at the little things that add up. ~Stacey

9 Things You Might be Doing That are Making Your Life Suck

Whole lotta shakin' going on...was it good for you??

I have been so remiss in my blog writing and really need to start doing it every day - or at least every other day. I wrote this one the day of the earthquake and never finished it.So I am finishing it now. Then i will write about Irene and how Mother Nature can be a real bitch...Oh and i got a 2nd dog. I will catch you up - don't worry! In the mean time here is- 

Was it good for you??

Sooo it's been a while, but I am pretty sure that the earth moved for me today. You know the saying... if the trailer's a rockin' then don't come a knockin'. Wait .. what?? It moved for you too? WTF? LMAO


Yeah so I am living at the Delaware Beach and the epicenter was in Virginia... sooo we got hit pretty hard today. We were rocking and rolling that's for sure but let's discuss...

I was watching a psychiatrist on tv today who said our minds, when confronted with the unexplained, will filter thru what we know and try to name what we are experiencing. Sort of like a filo-fax in our brains (and if you're too young to know what a filo-fax is.. Google it. Go ahead...I'll wait Are you back yet?) 


So when we are experiencing ummm i don't know let's say an Earthquake, something that we don't know about on the east coast... we try to explain it using what we know from our past in our minds.  So for many people, we were having vertigo, or fainting, or maybe we didn't eat enough and we were light headed. Or perhaps our dog was licking his winkie and we thought he was shaking the couch...yeah... that last one was me. 

I was sitting on the couch writing up a grocery list. let me say that we are dealing with Hurricane Irene down here in Lower slower so it's already defcon 5 on the streets. hence me needing to go to the grocery store. because I needed food... not because ms irene was coming- anyway - i felt the couch shaking and of course immediately blamed jack. I leaned over the couch seat and said Jack chill out and when I did that i almost fell off the couch - ummm not normal.

I looked down the hall and saw the blinds swinging back and forth and then looked at rhe fan and umm yah it was moving. So my brain said " yeah this isn't jack therefore it must be a seizure." simple mind process thought right?


It didn't help that my AC came on at the exact second the shaking started so then my second thought was oh shit my house is going to explode.  yeah i know, to much NCIS. anyway - after I almost fell off the couch and was holding on for dear life,everything was moving... and not in a good way.


So when it finally ended and I sat there, trying to figure out if I had a seizure or if in fact it was an earthquake, I decided to go online and see how often earthquakes actually happen down here in Lower Slower. You can imagine that it's not too often. The the phone starts ringing and the cell texts start coming and here I find out from the kid IT WAS AN EARTHQUAKE!!


And you can ask her and she'll tell you that the the first thing I said was "Oh thank God... I didn't have a seizure!"  I am so not right LOL!


Hope you all made it thru unscathed... and FYI while I was searching for the picture of the trailer rockin t-shirt I found this little slice of heaven

Bwahahahahahaha!! White Trash Barbie and Ken. Can you stand it?? I. Want. Them. 


and that is all.


Oh wait PSS - here's Jack's new friend Chewy

I just want to bite him he is so damn cute. And he is so much fun!! He makes Jackie act like a puppy! ...more on that in the next blogs.

Another random getting to know me...

1.You have 10 dollars and need to buy snacks at a gas station: Pringles, tastycakes(kandy kakes) water and Snapple lemon tea

2. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be?  A Mermaid

3. Whos your favorite redhead? Kathy Griffin 

4. What do you order when youre at IHOP?  Pancakes and bacon

5. Last book you read?  The Bitch-Proof Suit by De-ann Black and it was good- now reading Summer Rental by Mary Kay Andrews

6. Describe your mood.  Anxious – need job now

7. Describe the last time you were injured? Hit the moving ceiling fan with my hand and cut up and bruised my knuckles – it’s too low LOL

8. Which of your friends would you want to be stuck in a well with? Kent – because he would find a way for us to get out – McGyver!

9. Rock concert or symphony?  Kinda in the mood for a symphony lately

10. What is the wallpaper of your cell phone? Picture of the beach in Lewes

11. Favorite Soda? Pepsi – but I really don’t drink it

12. What type of shirt are you wearing?  Phillies shirt  - harry kalas

13. If you could only use one form of transportation:  Car – most direct

14. Most recent movie you have watched in theatres?  It’s been years – probably the first transformers movie

15. Name an actor/actress/singer you have had the hots for:  Ryan Reynolds – duh…and lately Adam Levine

16. Whats your favorite kind of cake?  Carrot w/ cream cheese icing or funfetti w. chocolate icing

17. What did you have for dinner last night?  Popeye’s chicken and fries

18. Look to your left, what do you see?  My other couch and the windows

19. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?  What are shoes? I live at the beach in flip flops and bare feet

20. Favorite toy as a child?  barbies

21. Do you buy your own groceries?  yes

22. Do you think people talk about you behind your back?  Who knows… who cares.

23. Whens the last time you had gummy worms? Couple months ago and I can not remember why LOL 

24. Whats your favorite fruit?  Pineapple

25. Do you have a picture of yourself doing a cartwheel?   Hahahaha no

I'm doing cartwheels in my mind... really! LOL

26. Do you like running long distances? Fake knee – not allowed to run

27. Have you ever eaten snow?  Yes – I have even put maple syrup on it

28. What color are your bedsheets?  Blue stripes

29. Whats your favorite flower? tulips 

30. Do you do ballet? Used too – 3 years of it before I hurt my knee. Toe, tap and ballet

31. Do you listen to classical music?  Yes – I am a fan of baroque

32. What is the 1st TV Theme song that pops in your head?  Spiderman and Cheers

33. Do you watch Sponge bob? no

34. What temperature is it outside right now?  Hot – too friggin hot – 82degrees at 2am

35. Do people consider you smart?  Hmmm I don’t know

36. How many piercings do you have?  Ears only - 2

37. Are you signed on AIM? no

38. Have you ever tried gluing your fingers together?  Yes – with elmers

39 .How do you feel about your family?  Love LOVE them – and miss them too

here's some of them...

40. Do you have an iPod?  No – sadly I do not

41. What time do you go to bed? Between 12 and 2am

42. What CD is currently in your CD player?  Adele – 21

43. What movie do you know every line to?  Talladega Nights

Shake 'n Bake baby

44. What is your favorite salad dressing?  Good Seasons italian

45. What do you want for Christmas this year?  My family to come to the beach or my bike or a tv

46. What family member/friend lives the farthest from you? Where?  My friend Dan – in Phoeniz AZ

47. Do you like hugs?  yes

Just ramblin' on...

Ok - so when i am sewing, I always have the radio on. Which means I get to hear a lot of songs I then fall in love with. Here are some of them...

 By the way, since the Voice I have become a huge Adam Levine fan... He is positively lickable.  And there are some sexy ass lyrics in this song... 'Take me by the tongue and I'll know you'  HELLO!!!  "I don't need to try to control you, Look into my eyes and I'll own you"... uh yes please! Reminds me of someone I use to sleep with, date, every damn time I hear that line. And before you ask... Yes, yes he did!



Love this song, love her need to buy this cd.  How many times can you say that when someone you're with puts their arms around you you feel like you're home. It's what everyone wants, I think. I know it's what I want...again.
She also sang Jar of Hearts which I loved!





 Matt Nathanson - this dude is having some BANGING sex. Listen to this song. I want a man to sing this song to me and mean it... Another song of his that's really pure sex is 'Higher'. I do enjoy him a lot.


and funally for all or any of you old heads out there reading me... this one brings back soooo many memories. Kashmir! that's all I need to say...

Random thoughts.. or what I've learned since moving to the beach

Taking a break from sewing before I head back to the trenches. While I was sewing last night and today I had all these random thoughts popping in to my brain and decided to write a blog about them. Those who know me intimately will not be surprised by that... my nickname in high school was Spacey after all. Not because I was stupid, but because my brain worked faster then my mouth and I would be 3 steps ahead of myself and expect others to know what I was talking about. Ehhh it's not easy to explain but suffice it to say I have a very active mind. It has a tendency, even without sleep, to go over the speed limit ...so to speak. 


So try and keep up...

~Mornings at the beach are awesome. Much better then mornings in West Chester, in a shared apartment.  I worked thru the night (sewing numbers again)and ran out to Wawa around 5:30am with the dog to stretch my legs and get some food. Nothing beats a beach sunrise and the call of the seagulls. Makes even 5:30 am seem wonderful. Quiet, no traffic,overcast... peace & tranquility.  I didn't realize that I needed that in my life as much as I do.

~I apparently am a morning person now. Based on the above and the fact that I can count on 1 hand the times I have slept past 7:30am.  Unfortunately I am also a night owl. I have yet to give up my Jimmy Fallon/Craig Ferguson love and find myself on the short end of sleep every day. But there is something really cool about going to bed and having your last thought be "I can't wait to get up in the morning."

~Early early this morning - like probably 4am, was the first time I have ever been scared since I moved down here. Again, if you know me well, you will know that me, not being scared in the wee hours of the night/morning is a rare thing. Even tho I lived in a safe area and had the dog... even tho I take meds for the PTSD and intellectually realized my attacker probably wasn't going to come back after me, I was still always afraid. I haven't felt that here. Until last night - and I think it was because of being tired, the thunderstorm that took out the lights and the dog being a freak. Add to that me sitting at the machine with my back to the door - radio on, machine loud and thinking i was hearing noises and I guess it was to be expected. What the years and a lot of research on PTSD have taught me is  that this is an excellent sign... and that I need to move that friggin hulk of a sewing machine so I can see out the door of my room. Problem solved. fear gone. PTSD being conquered! HUGE steps forward.


~I have absolutely no desire to drive back to West Chester in the near future. I actually feel guilty writing that... but it's the truth. I will be missing a few parties because of that but it's the way I feel. Don't get me wrong... I miss my family, my friends, my blarney stone, my wings LOL but not enough to leave my perfect little happy home. Plus i really think it would screw up the dog. he needs to be here for a good solid few months to realize that every day when I get up we aren't driving 2 hours to PA. And that every time I leave the house and him, I will always come back to him. He needs to realize that this is home. Hmmm maybe I do too.


Ok this is going longer than I thought it would and I have to eat something and get back to sewing so I will keep the next few short and sweet...

~When they say Lower Slower Delaware they mean it...  Time, down here, to the locals anyway, is very flexible. If they say they will be there at 10am expect them any time between 10:10 and 11... it's just the way it is.

~ I have a phone interview tomorrow for a job I really want... and I am nervous as hell but at the same time staying positive and trying the "Secret " approach of visualizing that I already have it. Calms me down and make me feel more confident. 


~Before I moved I finally had cell service in Goshen Valley. It was wonderful... Now, ironically,I am cell challenged again in my metal roofed house. arrrggghhh Is this what Alanis Morrisette was talking about.


~In the past week I have been blessed and lucky enough to see most of my family, my friend's Tami, Lori and Vern and can say my homesickness has been cut off at the pass. I love having visitors and I love living alone... Best of both worlds! 


~I am 47 yrs old and I miss my mom. A lot! Miss my dad too but I see him more often. Just found out they are coming down this weekend and I am so excited I am counting the hours.

~ I want and will be getting eventually, a grown up tricycle. Go ahead and laugh, but it's much harder to fall off one of these and I am not the most graceful girl on the planet

~ and last but not least... I am running on 3 hours sleep and have to do it all again tonight and tomorrow. Not bitching but may be spending all day Sunday in bed or on couch. I think I need it.

Dancing with myself...

Sooo I am heading halfway thru my 2nd full week here on my own. Of course this past weekend, my friend Don was here w/ his best friend Joe. So I met up with them on Friday and Sunday. SOooo much fun! 

Then my dad was here from Thursday thru Saturday so I got to cook dinner for him one night and then he took me to dinner the next.
BUT this week, I am a bit homesick.
 “Homesickness is. . . absolutely nothing. Fifty percent of the people in the world are homesick all the time. You don't really long for another country. You long for something in yourself that you don't have, or haven't been able to find.”~Anon


I've been stressed about money and jobs and in between all that I've started really missing, as the quote above says, my family and friends. Not my apartment or West Chester but something I haven't found down here... people to hang out with. Actually more than that , I miss my people to hang out with... I am a little bit lonely.

Amiee and Nicole

Tami

Jenn and Doug

Dre

Kelly and Colleen

Bob and Barb

Vern and Jeffie

Alex

Every house where love abides
And friendship is a guest,
Is surely home, and home sweet home
For there the heart can rest.
~Henry Van Dyke

It is a curious emotion, this certain homesickness…   we are torn between a nostalgia for the familiar and an urge for the foreign and strange. As often as not, we are homesick most for the places we have never known.

~ Carson McCullers

Then I found this in a post I wrote in December of last year-

And so as this January roles around, and I put Christmas behind me again, I find an excitement for what's to come. Not a sadness at a another year gone by, but pride at what I have been able to accomplish. I've learned that change is good and freeing and healthy! I have an undeniable sense that the best is yet to come and it's just waiting for me to find it. And find it I will. 

So bring on 2011... it's gonna be fantastic!

I will admit that I am proud of myself and what i have accomplished. I proved to myself that 

anything is possible if you want it badly enough. I think that once I get a job (and believe me

I am applying non stop) and meet some people I will feel a bit better. i still know that I made 
the right decision by moving. I still feel that I am exactly where i belong. I have come 
"home" and i own my own place and it is coming together beautifully.

But at 47 years old... I still miss my mom. LOL I guess that all means that I am a blessed
person. i have enough people in my life that i love, and that love me, that I am missing them.

Mom and Dad

And then I go to the beach and it's quiet and beautiful and I float in the warm water of the inlet and I am at peace. I sit on my chair in the sand and watch a school of dolphin playing out in the water and I realize this is what people dream of. This is what people say they want and never get. Somehow I have been lucky enough and determined enough and blessed enough 
to not only find my bliss but to live it.

And that's when i realize, when I know deep in my beach loving soul, that all will work out and it will be wonderful.