Thursday, October 13, 2011

Happy Birthday to me...

WOOHOO!! Today's my BIRTHDAY!!
and yes I am one of those birthday lovers. I celebrate it for as long as I can and love to tell everyone it's my day. Not because I want presents or well wishes, but just because it's here. It's the one day out of the year that we can call our own. Our own special holiday. I look at it as the beginning of my new year and look at the past year and look forward to the coming one. 

It is the first time I've been completely alone on my birthday - the first year in a while where I don't get together with my friends and family to catch up and celebrate. But that's ok. I saw my bestie Vern last night - had fabulous Nicola's pizza for dinner and walked on the beach and watched the spectacular crazy waves crashing  on the shore. 

Today I have a job interview at 1 at M & T bank. How can I NOT get the job if it's my birthday?? LOL it's a full time gig with the money I need and something I would be good at so fingers crossed. PLUS the woman who called me to set up the interview... today is her birthday too! LOL it's destiny.

So if you read my previous post Around and around I owe you an update of what I accomplished. I managed everything on the list except for the hallway painting (that's this afternoon) and the screened in porch. Pretty good if I do say so myself. 

So keeping it light and breezy today - here's some fun pictures of a few of my favorite things...
Frankfurt Germany Book Fair
Personally, being the book lover that I am, I like to think that Heaven has a special room that looks just like this!

David in a bathtub
Because seriously, who doesn't like David Boreanaz on a bathtub. I was watching the original pilot of Angel on demand the other night and forgot just how great that show was. Tho I do love him as Seely Booth in Bones, nothing is sexier than that long coat Angel use to strut around in.

mmmmmm Harry Shum jr
Yep, I am a gleek - and proud of it. And this year I am discovering a new lust for Harry here... can you blame me?? 

Love this pic - want the poster to frame and hang up in my house. 

And speaking of Mermaids - i am seriously thinking about making a Mermaid costume (merman?) for Chewy and entering him in the Sea Witch Dog Parade? Would that be wrong? Tacky? Do I care?? LOL nope - not a bit.
yep - something like this...
Oh please, like you wouldn't think it was cute! LOL

found this picture the other day and fell in love with it. it reminds me of the day this past August when Jeff and Vern and I sat on the beach watching the dolphins play for 2 solid hours - 

Think I may head to the beach after my job interview today - maybe have a little one on one time with the ocean. Sounds like a perfect way to spend part of my birthday!

Missing my girls today - Colleen, Kelly and Crystal. Kelly and DaShaun called me this morning and sang me Happy Birthday!! 
I think I will splurge on a bottle of champagne tonight and have a drink for my girlies!

Okay wrapping this up - heading to the shower and then getting ready for my job interview. I hope you all have a fantastic October 13th!! I know that I will!! <3 ~Stacey

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

around and around...

UGH! Can you belive the Phillies LOST??  It sucks because now I have to wait until Spring for more Phillies ball. And do not even get me started on the Eagles. Oh well there's always the Flyers. such is the life of a Philly sports fan. You win some... you lose a lot. LOL

Still in limbo here in slower lower, as I wait for the PA DMV to copy and mail me my PA drivers license. I can't start working at the one job I got at Cracker Barrel, until I have that license in my hand. Once I get the license I have to go to social security and get my replacement card as well. But that will only take an hour or so. So I float - with no money coming in and a feeling of nervousness at my situation. Spinning around and around in that catch-22 circle. I hope the person who stole my purse is still enjoying it. Because I sure as hell am still cleaning up the mess they made.

(For those of you too young or not from the US who may question what a "Catch-22" situation is or what Catch -22 means:Catch-22, coined by Joseph Heller in his novel Catch-22, is a logical paradox arising from a situation in which an individual needs something that can only be acquired by not being in that very situation; therefore, the acquisition of this thing becomes logically impossible. A real life example of this - much easier to understand would be -A man tries to get a job with a company, but they won't hire him because he has no work experience in that field. He cannot gain work experience because he cannot get a job in that field without experience. ~copied from Wikipedia - Catch-22)

It amaze me how one act can have such a ripple affect on so much of my life. And instead of utilizing my time off, I sit around and do nothing - or surf the web for other jobs. I have so much to get done in my house that I should be doing but haven't gotten off my ass to do them yet.  Which in turn makes me feel more useless and annoyed. another Catch-22 if you will... but one I can solve by getting over myself and becoming productive. I swear PROCRASTINATION should have been my middle name. Why put it off for tomorrow that which you can do the next day...LOL or something to that effect.

 I know that part of this is the PTSD rearing it's ugly head. Part of it's stress from the money situation and pure laziness as well. But really, what good is it doing me to dwell? To use this as an excuse to simply exist instead of live and thrive?

Here is my positive, moving forward affirmation and to do list for today-

Only I can control my actions and only I can change them. I refuse to stress about things that I have no control over - the license, the job, the money.... Instead I will only concentrate on that which I can accomplish. By doing that, I will then be able embrace the positive feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction.  

So here is my promise to myself for today. I feel if I put it on the blog, I will be held more accountable for it. Tonight before I go to bed I will let you know what I have actually done. Even more accountability...

Today I have decided to work myself ragged. When I fall into bed tonight I will be exhausted from the sheer volume of everything I have accomplished today.

  •  I will clean my house today, including scrubbing the floors and getting into those corners and under the furniture.(this is really something is should do 2x a week because of the dog hair and I haven't done it since last week) 
  •  I will finish painting the hallway today and then paint the cabinets and around the light fixture in the bathroom. All of which will be the same bleach linen color so it will be logical transition from one to the other. 
  • When that's complete, I will head out to the screened in porch and vacuum it before it rains, so I can enjoy it more when the weather is cool.(ugh - cobwebs and spiders abound... this will be a tough one to accomplish)
  •  I will eat a decent meal today - not a can of tuna or a handful of crackers. (yes - even tho I may be overweight, I do not eat enough. Sounds silly I know but when I am stressed I don't eat. )
  • I will call the DMV in Harrisburg and see what is going on with my license replacement.
  • I will call Cracker Barrel and explain to then that once again I will not be able to start the job because my license has not arrived yet (this one is the hardest on the list for me to complete...makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it)
So there is my list. This is how I have learned (God bless you life coach Andrea Owen) to stop listening to those negative gremlins in my mind and get my head out of my own butt and get things done. Okay peeps - it's time to kick ass! Wish me luck!