So spent a lot of time with myself in my head this past weekend and week. Sewing all nighters for Eagles jerseys means music's playing, brains working and thoughts I manage to push aside most of the time pop into my brain to be dissected and examined. The psychologist/coach part of me says "good for you! Embrace those thoughts, deal with them and get rid of them..." The strong silent part of me says "hide those feelings & stop thinking about this shit- make it go away" . Then there's the stoic Irish part of me which says "Feckin shite -drink a damn beer & get the hell over it already girl". (my irish part likes beer...)
All of it pisses me off and makes me want to write about it but I find that I am self censoring myself which pisses me off even more. I should be able to talk about anything I want on my blog - after all this is me damn it... BUT something's holding me back so i turn to music.It's all in the words... A few songs that are speaking to me - that I will allow to speak FOR me here...for now.
Kenny Chesney - Somewhere With You
Missy Higgins - Where I Stood, acoustic live version
Mumford & Sons - White Blank Page
Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova - Falling Slowly from the movie Once
Love, Love, Love Stacey!!! You are amazing! xoxo
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you are having a hard time. I absolutely LOVE Missy Higgins "where i stood" and of course I love Mumford. I fell in love with Fallilng Slowly when I saw the movie Once. Such a beautiful song. I had never heard the Kenny Chesney song but I liked it too despite not liking country music.
ReplyDeleteI often find comfort in music...sometimes it just says it best. If you need an ear...I have 2.
I like the title of this entry. I had to do a lot of thinking and evaluating myself and I am catching myself second guessing and then chickening- out. You described how I feel this week when you said, "after all this is me damn it... BUT something's holding me back." I like your idea of using songs to share your ideas. Great alternative.
ReplyDeleteThank you ladies! thank you! Jacque - you are amazing! i find my bliss with your quotes every time! Jewels - you are too sweet. and I appreciate it so much. I really need to get over this but he keeps popping up in my life so it becomes difficult to keep him from my brain. Ruth - I can say to you don't self censor. Just go with the flow and write what you feel. But then I don't take my own advice LOL.Good luck! xoxoxo to all of you!
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